when you're dreaming with a broken heart

I SLEPT AT 10PM AND WOKE UP AT 3AM
THE TIME I USUALLY FALL ASLEEP!
LOL!!

but actually i kinda woke up 'cause i had a bad dream
now i'm feeling a lil sleepy again!

but the dream was so sad, the feelings so real
i just have to blog about it! :(
(to convince myself it's not so real HAHA!)

i dreamt about a break up and it was really SO HEART WRENCHING
you can really feel your heart being wrenched out during a break up
haha esp when you cry like mad and then wake up the next morning
that's the worst part, 'cause you so desperately want everything to be a dream
waking up only to find out that it's not :'(
and then you start to cry all over again.

haha i also dreamt of emilia, jinsze, junwei and mr yip all at the same time!
trying to make random conversations so that i appear happy and keep my mind off the sad thingums.
then there's the crying and him looking from afar just to see how i am
but not bothering to talk to me
OHMYWORD SO SADDDDDD :'(

i hate break ups :(

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SO I JUST WANT TO PAUSE FOR A MOMENT
AND SAY THANK YOU FOR ALL OF THIS!!! :)
not only him, but for all the great fwens i have! :3
10SH21 is really a great class
and with "last day" coming up on friday
feelings of gratitude just overwhelm me :')

i shall do some special mentions on Friday
'cause i know some of my stalker classmates read this but are not tagging
like some scary stalker...HAHA!
HI SZENENG, HI ZHU-ER, HI (maybe?) KENNETH
and yes HELLO YOU EMILIA! :)

and THANK YOU GOD for my loving, caring boyfriend! :)
haha during 30km cycling last saturday
we kinda had a little disagreement and he was frustrated at me at first
(actually it was 'cause he was concerned w my safety)
and then i got frustrated back
so we were both frustrated at each other haha!

then while we were both frustrating each other
and it's really v obvious when i get sad/mad
i'll just get really quiet and avoid eye contact!
when i was totally lying to him about "i'm fine, i'm okay"
he said "we tgt for so long already, you think i don't know when you're really fine and when you're not?"
:') which touched me a little bit, 'cause that means he DOES notice!
and the whole part when he stopped cycling and held me on my shoulders and said
"we're going to settle this right now okay? we won't start cycling until we stop feeling like this"
which was v caring and mature of him :')
little things like this make me so very grateful for someone like him :)

HAHA afterwards the ride became very fun! :)
he kept making sure i was comfortable and unafraid!
it was freaking dark at 7pm and we had to cycle pass super ulu and dark places
OMGGGGGG damn timid of me but he said he would be scared if he was alone too! haha!
plus the thought of cycling all the way back to east coast seemed like such an impossible idea!!! D:

:)
OK DREAM YOU SO NOT REAL!!! :)
i shall go back to sleep! :)